Thus a marshmallow is sort of metaphor for life.
We all start off new. Some of us may be golden and some of us may burn. Regardless we can all end up the perfect desert.
I created this account about a year or so ago and I've never once posted. However I need a place to vent, for at the moment I'm a burnt marshmallow. In the past few weeks I've gone from being a poor working college student to being a poor working college student diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis (MS). I'm slipping into a depression. I cry quite often, am rarely happy, can feel myself starting to rely on my boyfriend to much, and will soon have to give myself an injection on the daily.
In reality it's not as bad as it sounds. I'm a very mild case. I've technically only had the one clinical isolated incident and the majority of the changes I have to make are to eat healthier and exercise. So I should be using this as an opportunity to better myself right? Yes I know this. But there's still a sadness I can't shake. I feel like my worlds coming down. I have an immune system in overdrive that's messing up my central nervous system. Hmm not awesome. Worst case scenario I lose some brain tissue and motor skills. Also not awesome. But the doctors have assured me that I'll be ok. That I've caught it early and there's an 80% chance that I can prevent another occurrence. And if I don't prevent another occurrence I can lessen its severity. If I am treated.
What caused all this unpleasantness was facial numbness on the left side of my face for about a week. It tripped me out, so I saw a doctor. Got MRI's and received bad news. Got a second opinion (yesterday) and received more bad news. So I think I need a hobby. Maybe I'll learn how to cook. I also need to right down my emotions so that I can cope and return to the pleasant person I was not a month ago. Who knows. I shall hopefully use this sanctuary of a public blog to stop the fire and maybe I'll be able to see my burnt marshmallow crust was peeled off and I can be fresh again.
